You know I haven’t being consistent with posting on the blog. A lot of things haven’t being going as well as they should do I wanted to hide. I wanted to hide from my blog because this is meant to be a source of inspiration and motivation to people, and so I didn’t want to write about my struggles,
As a writer, my current feelings would affect my work. Even down to my choice of words, you would know something was wrong. But I forgot for a brief moment that there is beauty in the struggle. There is beauty in the process, you just have to trust the process.
Now let’s go deeper, when I was younger, let’s say around that primary school period, I did very well academically. I was an A student. There was this notion (or rather proven theory) that most A students don’t end up being much. Maybe they end up looking for jobs or having a routine high paying job. From that age, subconsciously, I didn’t want that to be my story. I began looking for something else, something extra. Maybe it was singing ( I mean I was in choir when I was little and Beyoncé also started from choir, so there was a pattern). Or it was athletics (endurance runners here☝️). Or the most recent one: writing (I could be a well published author with book tours all round the world). The drive was I have to prove people wrong, I have to be the exceptional A student.
Now that was a huge mistake, if your drive is linked with pleasing people or displeasing people (as the case may be), it means success or achievement to you would always be tied to the validation of others. And that’s a very sad way to live.
This is where growth comes in through the grace of God. God began releasing me for the mental bondage I had placed myself in. It was a very strategic process, I began to understand that everything finds true expression in God. Everything! All the gifts, all the talents, all the potential, they are all part of a bigger picture. And God is putting all the pieces together. I began to understand what being a vessel or instrument of God truly means. You see, I checked Wikipedia for what an Instrument means, it said “it is through purpose that an object becomes an Instrument”. It is through purpose that you begin to understand that every single part and detail of your life has its use. Even the flaws and struggles are useful to be testimonies for others’ breakthroughs. I understood that God-given academic prowess wasn’t for me but for others in order that all glory may be given to God,
Is somebody reading this!!!
I began to understand that the real question is not about comparing your gifts with others but asking yourself what are you doing with what God has given you. No matter how little it may seem.
And then I understood that all the struggles are for a reason. I understood that in the process there is a lesson to be learnt and a story to be told. And so I write to everyone reading this + myself, don’t just trust the process, Trust God in the process because He sees the bigger picture.
Ps: Please let’s discuss in the comments, I want to know your own views and experiences.